You can get caught up on Operation Lose the Lard Ass here: http://lolorashel.blogspot.com/2011/11/operation-lose-lard-ass-three-month.html
A month ago, I was, unhappily, up to 251. Today, I'm 255. Yesterday I was 253. My weight fluctuates every single day. I can go up and down by 5 pounds in a night. I only weigh in the morning before I've eaten breakfast, but I assume I'm super sensitive to swelling and salt, so I gain and lose water weight easily.
I have been trying to watch my food -- in particular my sugar intake. Some days I'm good. Some days I'm not. I still allow stress to dictate what I eat sometimes and there have been a lot of stressful days lately.
I set a list of goals recently as well: http://lolorashel.blogspot.com/2011/12/i-dont-do-new-years-resolutions.html
My short term goal of losing 20 pounds is for two reasons. First off, if I do end up teaching a class at Twirly Girls, I don't want to be the "fat" teacher. Second, I may be doing some on-camera work in January and I don't want to be the big blob next to the tiny performers.
I have teamed up with my gastric bypass sister, Jessica (read her story HERE, and HERE is my story for her Facebook page). We are accountability partners for each other. Although, I find that the more honest I am becoming with the public in general, the more an accountability partner doesn't work. It used to be that admitting my short-comings to another human would cause me to stop doing said action so that I wouldn't be humiliated. Now I happily admit what I've done and just excuse myself by saying, "I'm only human." Being publicly "only human" is making me fat. I will continue to check in with Jessica, because I love her for being so supportive of me. She has some weight loss goals but is focusing on water in-take. I need to realize too that I am the only person responsible for my food intake and exercise. I appreciate the encouragement from others, but I am the one who shoves that shit in my face.
Here's the history of my weight:
Approximate weight before starting phen-fen in 1996 (when I was 20 years old): 300
Approximate lowest weight after phen-fen (I was on it for 9 months): 235
Highest pre-surgery weight in late 2003: 347
Weight on surgery day: 317 (3/17/2004 -- HERE is an update from my 6th new-birthday/surgiversary in 2010)
Lowest weight after surgery: 180 (approx. 1/2005)
Approximate weight around plastic surgery: 210 (2006)
Weight in 2008: 222 (started going to the gym religiously)
Weight in March 2009: 201
Weight in August 2009: 215 (met Rob)
Weight in December 2009: 225 (started Twirly Girls)
Weight on 6th new-birthday: 225 (3/2010)
Weight on 7th new-birthday: 230 (3/2011)
Weight today: 255