I think 40 is going to work out well for me.
I've been on quite the adventure throughout my life. Sure, I haven't traveled to a ton of exotic places or cured cancer, but I try to keep the excitement at a long-term sustainable level.
In my 20's, I worked with local bands and spent a lot of fun nights in the bars and clubs with a great group of friends. In my 30's, I started pole dancing and met another community of amazing people. I have been in my career for 22 years. I have been an aunt for 11 years.
I have experienced tragedy and anguish -- the lowest of the lows, where I have considered ending my own life. And I have experienced the highest of the highs, where it feels criminal to be so happy. I am happiest where I stand now. I enjoy my job. I love my friends and family. I am active and healthy and feel the best I have in years.
I have climbed Half Dome. Sure, it's not Everest, but it kind of felt like it that day as I looked over the edge, amazed that I made it. I worked for the Raiders for two seasons. I did the 100th annual Bay to Breakers. I love drag shows! I live for good live music -- and my favorite band is Pepper. I have done yoga in Grace Cathedral. The beach is my happy place. Riding horses on the beach is a feeling I can't describe. Sunsets make me cry -- in a good way. I have helped build the first independent and largest pole showcase in Northern California. I play a chunky superhero in my off time. Seriously, my life does not suck.
I am really trying to embrace the "fuck yes" mentality. The article I read applied it to dating -- not wasting time with men who are just "meh," but it transfers nicely to life. If it is not a "fuck yes," it is a no. When I was at my highest weight, I felt myself pulling away from people. So, that's when I got into the local music scene and started making myself go out. I took on the attitude that I would pretty much say yes to any experience that was offered to me (within reason, of course). Although it certainly helped me not become antisocial and showed me some really fun times, I spread myself too thin. Suddenly, you realize you're super busy but spending time with people who don't matter. So, although I still stay busy now, I make time for the people who matter to me -- and those people make time for me as well. We make time for the things that are important to us. So, I say fuck yes to those things.
Anyone can buy you a gift. I am more interested in the experiences. The most valuable thing you can give me is your time and I appreciate each and every one of you who has shared your time with me (and apologize to anyone who didn't make the photo album below...I went through photos for an hour trying to find everyone!).
|my nephew, Dillon|
|Family at the beach|
|Babies at Golden Gate Bridge|
|My seastar's wedding|
|Introducing the Moose!|
|My youngest sister, Lindsey|
|John dragging me across the finish line|
|The battle between good and evil|
|My friend Neil, originally from the band Sunburn|
|Chunky Girls in action|
|Ellen and me at NCPP|
|Jade -- she is everything!|
|Kristina -- my friend since we were 15|
|Rachelle and Ness -- I have known them 20 years|
|My mom and me at the beach|
|Fancy dress party|
|Bret from Pepper|
|Yesod from Pepper|
|Kaleo from Pepper|
|Introducing Ness to snapchat filters|
|The Pearson family|
|Do you know who this is?|
|Mina, Nadia and Rita|
|in Tahoe celebrating Ness' 40th|
|Marisa and Gia|
|Larissa, Annie and Rita|
|Do you know who THIS is?|
|My hoe ass giraffe sister and partner in crime|