I am always hesitant to join large scale pole events like this because I am not the strongest poler, nor am I a super sexy mover. What will make my video stand out amongst the thousands of videos that will share the same hashtag? I have a fairly analytical mind, and being artsy is a process that I don't really like to share. I feel extremely vulnerable putting my movement out there for others to judge. I feel like I can often copy certain moves, and even make them look fairly good (hello, Closer routine!), but I don't always feel right on the inside when I do them -- mostly because I feel silly. I haven't felt comfortable free dancing since before my foot surgery in 2013. So, deciding to do this dance in particular was a hard decision. That being said, I'm actually pretty happy with the result. It was raw and emotional. No, I'm not sexy like a lot of the other girls, but I felt sexy in this moment. It was a very real experience and I am happy it was captured on film.
So, enjoy my contribution to UPA's Bringing Sexy Back 2016.
|Thank you to Stephanie Otto for these awesome photos|