Second, while re-modeling this house, I met the love of my life. And it was someone I already knew! When I started wanting to work on the house late last year, a co-worker told me that another co-worker did side work and could help me with paint. Ed entered the picture to help me with the house in December. We would be in the house working at the same time almost every weekend. We would BS with each other, and we would share our nightmare dating stories. He kept telling me that he felt like once I moved to Brentwood and got out of the bar scene, I would settle down. My dad came to town in mid-January and we had a couple of family birthday celebrations. My family started asking me, why aren't you dating Ed?? I kept deflecting: Ed hasn't asked ME out! Co-workers started teasing us and accusing us of dating. We kept denying it. Around the same time, our texts back and forth moved from just about the house, to be a little more curious about what we were each doing outside of working on the house. They got a little more flirtatious. I started inviting him to do things with my friends and me -- like hot tub night. Then one night after the hot tub, he kissed me. And it was such an amazing connection. We've essentially been together ever since. I've never had something be so effortless. One of my issues in past relationships was that I always felt like I was too much, so past boyfriends perhaps tolerated me. And Ed doesn't tolerate me. He celebrates me and tells me every day how lucky HE is. All while continuing to work on my house (for free now, though...sorry honey!). He makes dinner for my family and me more nights than not. He cleans. He does yard work. He's easy to get along with. He tells me I'm beautiful. My family adores him. I seriously keep pinching myself because sometimes I can't believe this is real. I've never been treated so well, or been so happy. I never knew it was supposed to be easy. I always fought for the wrong relationships in the past. I didn't realize it shouldn't be such a fight. He is everything I've ever wanted in a partner, and I am so fortunate we found each other. You never want to believe that you weren't a whole person when you were single, or say that another person completes you, but you never know how awesome things really can be until you find that healthy, happy relationship. All the puzzle pieces that you didn't even know were missing just fit together.
ast bout was when I was trying to do school last year, and it was too overwhelming. I was staying in the house crying almost every night, and still not getting my homework done. I stopped hanging out with my friends, and I didn't feel like going anywhere. It was a rough time. These times we are in certainly have the potential for putting me in that place again. I'm somewhat isolated at home during the day. I am not going to the office every day, and not seeing my co-workers. I am not doing my regular activities. My saving grace is that Ed and my brother's family are here most nights and we eat dinner together. We are essentially operating as one family unit during this shelter-in-place. It is keeping me sane. When I felt the first inkling of a problem last week, I warned Ed. I told him I can't always control it but I recognize when it's coming on. So he made sure we got out of the house. We have taken some hikes. Done yard work. Last weekend, I even went on a little bike ride. We are doing yoga 4-5 days per week (online class). I feel a lot better today.
This covid thing is unlike anything I've ever witnessed before. I am still struggling to see how things got out of hand this quickly. I know most of us hate the saying "everything happens for a reason." But perhaps we can all take a step back and take this time to figure out what is actually important to us. For me, I couldn't have been in a better place for this to happen. I am surrounded by love and joy. I have a five year old and a one year old to keep me entertained (I also have White Claw for that). I enjoy spending time with my brother and sister-in-law. I have an amazing boyfriend. Ed made a fire pit so we can sit in the backyard and roast marshmallows. Maybe I needed to slow down a little so I could see exactly how lucky I am. Although I miss some of my friends during this lock down, I don't miss the bar scene. I am so content with my little house, my yard and my family close. I am praying that you all stay safe and healthy and I hope for relief for the entire world.
|Unrelated to this post but right before the shut down, I got to see Pepper...always happy to see this band!|
(Pictured here with Kaleo.)