Thursday, July 28, 2011
Re-committing to pole dancing
Last night I was at Twirly Girls. Bel was asking us to put together short strings of moves. A twirl, a sway, a transition...Two twirls, three transitions...etc.
Deer in headlights.
It's like I had never pole danced before. I forgot all the moves and their names. I felt clumsy and stupid. I have been doing this for almost two years. I am just being silly at this point.
I have been SO excited and passionate about pole dancing lately but I realized I've been passionate about WATCHING other people pole dance. I am dealing with weight gain and feeling slow and fat and unsexy.
Bel gave us homework...to go through our different levels and put together a routine she can call out for the entire class to do next week. I'm really excited about it and I'm re-committed to being a dancer and getting stronger. I am great at being silly and half-assing moves. I want to be great at doing the moves the way they're supposed to be done.