Tuesday, May 10, 2016

The 7th Annual Lovely Rita Fundraiser

Well, we did it again.  Twirly Girls Pole Fitness hosted the 7th Annual Lovely Rita Fundraiser to benefit the National Kidney Foundation.  Our very own Rita has had three kidney transplants and Bel has hosted this event every year to help support Rita and to fund research to help people have healthy kidneys.

I performed a routine choreographed by Pole Dance Reunion with Jade, Alana and Katie.  These ladies are another reminder of the importance of sisterhood.  We had a great time getting together to practice and actually have our next two routines sketched out.

Each year, we have an issue in the studio at this event.  The toilet has flooded.  The AC has gone out.  The stereo has broken.  This year, it was the lights.  They kept going into strobe mode.  After two false starts, we finally got the green light, no pun intended.  Although it certainly wasn't my strongest performance of this routine, I am still mostly happy with how it turned out.

If you would like to donate, please visit this link: http://donate.kidney.org/site/TR/Walk/NKFServingtheWest?px=1559560&pg=personal&fr_id=8163

And to watch our video, please do so below:

Be happy you can pee!  If you've had any kidney experiences you'd like to share, please do so below!

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

I Did It All For The Likes

Something happens when I post a semi-nude photo of myself.  Sure, judgment from the haters.  Then there is the admiration from some men (well, and certain friendly neighborhood lesbians).  And usually kudos from women.  But what I get most out of posting myself so naked is freedom. 

I get that I am being judged for everything I post.  Some are disgusted by larger bodies.  Some place a moral judgment on nudity and think I'm a slut for showing too much skin.  Some just think I'm an attention whore who needed to be hugged more as a child.  Any, all or none of that may be true, but it doesn't bother me.  When I started posting my weight and showing my skin online, I gained the freedom of not giving a single shit what people think of me. 

I won't lie.  It does feel nice to get the compliments.  I spent a good portion of my life hiding and hating myself, so it certainly is a nice ego boost when people like my photos or comment that they think I'm beautiful.  But I don't necessarily post them for that reason. 

After I posted one of these semi-nudes from our Chunky Girl photoshoot over the weekend, I gained a new follower on Instagram.  As I normally do, I checked out his profile.  One of his recent photos was a girl's super juicy booty in a thong and it essentially said that if you post photos such as these, sure you get 50 likes but those are 50 fewer men who will put a ring on that finger.

First off, I am not on Instagram trolling for a husband, so I could give a flying fuck if some creeper dude who liked my Instagram photo isn't going to propose.  Second off, I don't feel like my Instagram is even overrun by creepy guys.  I have a large following of women, who have learned that we don't have to tear each other down just to make ourselves happy.  I love all of my social media friends, some of whom I know in real life and some of whom I have never met.  I still appreciate each of them who bothers to contribute to the conversation, whether that is leaving a comment, sending me a private message or just liking my photo. 

I blocked that dude, by the way.  He was a hater lying in wait.  He would have insulted me someday and today will not be that day.

I love this body.  I have good and bad days like everyone else.  I see a back fat roll or thigh cellulite in the mirror and frown for a second, then I move on.  This is what I look like.  Take it or leave it.  It took me a long time to get here, so forgive me if you feel like I am sharing it too often.  Move on down the road if my page is offensive to you.  I feel like there is more to gain by showing some skin and normalizing larger-than-average bodies in social media than there is by hiding under a bunch of material and preaching self love. 

Part of my life purpose is helping to bring acceptance of all bodies to the mainstream.  I credit Twirly Girls Pole Fitness and Chunky Girl Comics with helping speed up my transformation.  I really feel like I am a completely different person than I was seven years ago.  I weigh more but my heart feels more joy and my life is much happier than it has ever been.  Thank you to each of you who has helped me along on this journey. 

And next time you see someone post a nekkid photo, maybe don't judge...rather, appreciate that they are sharing the beauty of their amazing body with you.