Initially, the idea was presented to me as a documentary about pole fitness. I have talked about the difference between pole dance and pole fitness. The lines are blurred for me but there is often a distinct difference for those who prefer one or the other. I wondered if I could properly present a good story about pole fitness when I am not exactly the best representation of society's desired "fit" person. I pulled on my Health At Every Size big girl panties and said I'd do it.
I chatted with Karen before we met. She said she'd send me the questions to review prior to our interview. I had my whole pole dancing story ready in my head, ready to present it in linear fashion. Then I received the questions. Clearly, Karen had done her research. She knew everything about me. My entire history with weight issues. My religious up-bringing. Everything. This wasn't just about pole dance. This was about my life journey. From being a big kid to a fat college student. This was about weight loss surgery. It was about re-gaining weight. This was about health and fitness and pole dance. This was MY story. Suddenly, I was more than nervous.
I cried as I read the questions, re-counting stories in my head from when I was younger and made to feel like I wasn't good enough because I was chubby. I followed the questions and re-gathered my thoughts. This interview was going to be WAY harder than I thought!
Tina and I met on two different occasions. We did talk about my story. About my weight and upbringing. And about how pole dance has changed me as a person. And I didn't cry! But it was a really awesome experience. I've been on such an amazing journey, starting with Rita and I meeting Bel in December of 2009, all the way to now, dancing with my class, Boys, Girls and Twirls on Monday nights. I have met so many awesome people and I thank each and every one for being part of my life.