I have had many people suggest that I model (Sometimes followed by the fat insult, "but you have such a pretty face!"). I have always felt like I have no place in that world. I'm way too big to be a traditional model. I'm still slightly too big to be a traditional plus-sized model (they generally go for size 10-12 girls). And I'm too small to be a true plus-sized model. I bounce between a size 14 and 16. Where is my place in the world??
Why do people always want what they can't have? If I was the size of a ballet dancer, would I want to be taller, stronger, faster, or whatever? Probably. I think it is so important for young girls especially to learn how to love themselves regardless of how they look (although I'm not doing very well of supporting the cause with this bipolar post). I also think it's important to dress for your size. Nothing better than seeing a bigger girl sporting low-slung jeans with six inches of butt crack hanging out. I love the website www.hipsandcurves.com. They celebrate larger sizes. They even use larger models. And their lingerie is still beautiful. I always used to love seeing websites or stores that offered larger sizes. They'd still use the size 0 model to show off the clothes (with a happy note in the corner "OFFERED IN PLUS-SIZES!!"). Or, if they had a larger model, she'd be wearing a tent. I'm sure we could debate all day about fat acceptance and whether clothing designers are actually making enough cute clothes for the big girl, but I can definitely say there are more options now than when I was a teenager.
I am still a work in progress. Although I still strive to be at least 25 pounds lighter than I am right now, I am also trying to accept my body. I imagine I will yo-yo this 25 pounds for the rest of my life. I have a terrible habit of always pulling at my clothes to hide my fat rolls, which I need to stop doing. I believe that there are clothes that flatter every size, although I also refuse to "accept" my recent weight gain by buying new, larger clothes, so I'm sausage-ing it until I lose this weight.
I recently met through Facebook, a photographer named Steve Gatlin who supports beautiful women loving themselves at any size. I will attach his website. Please watch his short video. It's really well done.
Until next time, keep twirling!
Steve's website and short video: