|Silly monkey, eat the right food!|
Yesterday I was listening to a podcast from the 2nd Annual Eating Psychology Online Conference. He was interviewing a woman about eating disorders. Granted, they were mostly talking about binge eating disorder, but other disorders were mentioned, and I realized something I hadn't noticed before -- I don't feel that way at all anymore. No constant compulsion to eat anything and everything at all hours of the day. I'm not rabidly searching my shelves for sugary snacks at work. I don't think about what I'm going to eat next as I am eating my current meal/snack. I actually now have defined meals and snacks instead of leaving food on my desk and literally munching all day long. I certainly still have A LOT to learn about what to eat and when to eat (just because I work so much and have too many side activities), but I am now eating because my stomach is hungry, not because my head told me I needed to eat. I am also still making the majority of my meals at home, I have cut out fast food almost completely, and when I do eat out, I am making better choices for myself. Also -- and this is huge -- when stress hits me, jellybeans are no longer my first thought.
I pondered whether I ever had an eating disorder at all, or if the sugar was just always controlling me.
I guess that in itself is probably an eating disorder, or at least disordered eating -- whatever you feel comfortable calling it. And I certainly felt like I transferred addictions after gastric bypass [HERE is another post you can read on the subject]. When I couldn't eat, I shopped. When I couldn't shop anymore, I started eating again and gained weight. I took anti-depressants and gained more weight. I tried diet products and gained even more weight. But all of that could still have been fueled by too much sugar and processed food in my diet (including the "necessity" of the anti-depressants, which are terrible for my body). I guess I'll never truly know. I have so many health issues related to gastric bypass and my food choices. I can honestly say I probably would not have lived into my 80's or 90's like my grandmothers before me if Ellen had not intervened. I realize none of us know when our time will come but now I at least feel like I have a fighting chance. I will be forever grateful to Ellen for sending me down the right path in the food department.
So saying I never had an eating disorder or have now been cured of one might be dangerous but I certainly do feel better about my life in general since cutting down on sugar. If you have had similar experiences with sugar, please share them with me. I love hearing from all of you!