Friday, August 31, 2012

Episode 37

Today my 36th year begins...Episode 37 of the lolorashel show.  I think my mom said I was born around 5:37 PM, so I guess I have a few hours before I'm actually "born."  I don't really know what I had planned for my life.  As a child, I never had my dream wedding planned out in my head.  I didn't really know what I wanted to do with my life until a Careers class in high school told me to be a paralegal.  I didn't specifically NOT want children (until I hit my 30's and realized I valued money and sleep too much).  I don't know where I thought I would be in life but I guess I didn't think it would be "here." 

My life is not terrible but it sure could be better.  And it could be worse.  I have a lot of amazing friends and family who make every day worth living.  I have a roof over my head and food on my table (even if it is top ramen some nights).  I have a truck to drive (even needing $1,200 in new tires right now, this truck has treated me well over the last five years).  I have a job when many don't.  I get to take great classes at Twirly Girls and have been blessed with the opportunity to teach a really amazing class.  I may feel chubby but I am still 100 pounds lighter than I used to be.  My body may hurt but that just means that I am lucky enough to be able to use and abuse it still. 

So why am I so depressed?  It's funny how our society works.  We seem to want everything we want as soon as we want it.  What happened to hard work and dedication paying off?  No...we want things handed to us on a silver platter without lifting a finger.  I used to get mad at a friend when they complained about their problems, which I deemed way less important than mine.  But everyone has problems and we all have to deal with them and the stress and anxiety they bring. 

Anyway, this year, I am making a commitment to myself.  I need to be healthy.  I have maintained this weight for about a year now and it's time to start losing some of it.  I feel big and like a sloth.  I don't like that.  My last "official" weigh-in was in May.  I weighed 254.6 on May 4, 2012.  Today I weighed 255.4.  Two days ago, it was 253.2.  I jump around a lot.  So this year I dedicate to activity.  So I guess not to losing weight necessarily, although I do hope that is one of the benefits.  I will commit to being active every single day, even if its only for 15 minutes.  Twirly Girls, yoga, running, pilates, whatever...I need to do something. 

I know food is also my issue and will continue to be my issue, so I don't even know what to do about that.  Everyone and their brother has a diet for me to follow...and I just know I won't.  So I am not even going to bother. 

In addition to being my birthday, tonight is a blue moon.  And the lottery jackpot is up to $83 million.  You gotta play to win and someone will win it -- why not me?  :-)

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Want to watch the Pole Expo competition and showcase but can't afford to come to Las Vegas??

YOU ARE IN LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

For a mere FIVE DOLLARS, you can join in to watch the Pole Expo competition and showcase, AND listen to commentary from polefessionals, Annemarie Davies and Emily Wu. 

You don't even want to know what this trip is costing me after airfare and hotel!  

Click the link below and sign up for the early bird price today!!

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Pole Art 2012...and the winner is...

Pole Art 2012 was held last weekend in Sweden.  I was unable to attend but have been excitedly watching videos as they are posted to YouTube.  I wanted to at least post the winners here on my blog.

Pole Art 2012 Female Champion:  Oona Kivela

Runner up:  Natasha Wang

Third place:  Lolo Hilsum

Fourth place: Phoenix Kazree

Fifth place:  Rafaela Montanaro

Pole Art 2012 Male Champion:  Saulo Sarmiento

Runner up (tie):  Steven Retchless

Runner up (tie):  Evgeny Greshilov

Third place:  Patryk Rybarski

Here is Jenyne Butterfly's guest performance:

Showcase performances

Michelle Stanek:

Ekaterina Romanova:

Dance Theater "Trash:"

Intellego Pole Company:

Additional competitors:

August posts for The Pole Dancing Shop

Pole Expo Las Vegas 2012

September 6-9, 2012, The Palms Casino Resort in Las Vegas, Nevada will be taken over by pole dancers from all over the world for Pole Expo!

Pole Expo was organized by Fawnia Dietrich, founder of Pole Fitness Studio in Las Vegas.  As you may remember from our post, A Brief History of Pole Dance, Fawnia opened the first exotic dance school in Canada in 1994.  She is considered one of the pioneers of bringing pole to the mainstream.

Click HERE to finish the article...

Pole Dancing Competitions

There is no question that the pole dancing industry is exploding. Studios are popping up all over the world and competitions are following suit. Many of us have heard which competitions are amazing and which are having issues. Check out THIS thread, where people discuss which competitions are getting it right.

Click HERE to finish the article...

Monday, August 20, 2012

Want to vote for APFC's Video of the Year Award?

I will have an upcoming blog about the American Pole Fitness Championships, which will take place in New York in a couple of months.  In the meantime, I didn't want you to miss the chance to vote on the Video of the Year. 

The elite finalists are listed here (and all videos are at the bottom of the page):

And you can find instructions on voting for your favorite video here:

I would link the videos but only four of the five finalists have been officially announced and I don't think it would be fair to embed four finalist videos.  But keep an eye on APFA's Facebook page and congratulations to the four announced finalists: Ravan, Dakota Fox, Suwasit, and Anne Tobiasz.  Can't wait to see who the last finalist will be!

Good luck!!

Binge eating versus compulsive over-eating

I've talked about binge eating before.  Check out that post HERE.  I started thinking recently though, I don't think I'm a binge eater.  I don't down whole cakes or 12 hamburgers in the backseat of my own car.  I just steadily over-eat all day long.  Rarely full to the point of wanting to die (although that happens sometimes too).  Just always with something in my hand on it's way to my stomach.  I think that is more like compulsive over-eating.  They are both eating disorders.  They are both unhealthy.  But I am just trying to properly "diagnose" myself so I can fix the problem.

I have held a steady weight for a year now.  I had pretty quickly gained 35 pounds over two years.  So I spent the last year just trying not to gain.  I have succeeded.  Now I want to lose.  I try so hard to control myself and the harder I try, the more I lose control.  Sure, picking up a bag of jellybeans could be seen as a binge.  But I don't do that very often.  Something on a daily basis keeps me at this weight.  My lack of good food choices.  Not exercising enough.  Not sleeping enough.  Picking up a bag of jellybeans every month or two isn't what's making me fat.  According to Health At Every Size, you aren't necessarily unhealthy because you are fat and you aren't necessarily fat because you are unhealthy.  Maybe I said that wrong.  Just because you are fat doesn't mean you are a slob who doesn't take care of yourself.  And just because you are skinny doesn't mean you are healthy and in shape.  Maybe that's more correct. 

My body type is clearly not meant to be small.  I am attaching a photo of me with my best friend, Natalie, when we were 8-years-old.  Natalie is three days older than me.  Clearly, I'm a  moose.  Not calling myself fat as an 8-year-old, but I am not a small child.  I will never have a tiny ballet dancer's body.  I am okay with that.  But *I* am not okay at this weight. 

Anyway, I was thinking about the difference between the two eating disorders I have.  I found this blog about the difference:


Compulsive overeating is characterised by an addiction to food. An individual suffering from compulsive overeating disorder engages in frequent episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings and depression. Unlike individuals with bulimia, compulsive overeaters do not attempt to compensate for their binging with purging behaviours such as fasting, laxative use or vomiting. Compulsive overeaters will typically eat when they are not hungry, spend excessive amounts of time and thought devoted to food, and secretly plan or fantasize about eating alone. Compulsive overeating almost always leads to weight gain and obesity, but not everyone who is obese is also a compulsive overeater.

In addition to binge eating, compulsive overeaters can also engage in grazing behaviour, during which they return to pick at food over and over throughout the day. This results in a large overall number of calories consumed even if the quantities eaten at any one time may be small. When a compulsive eater overeats primarily through binging, he or she can be said to have binge eating disorder. Where there is continuous overeating but no binging, then the sufferer has compulsive overeating disorder.

Another related post here:

Yeah, I am a grazer.  I am working on it.  I may spend the rest of my life working on it.  What I don't need is advice from every Tom, Dick or Harry on how to lose weight and get in shape.  I think I have spent less time in my life being unhappy with my own size and more time concerned that other people are unhappy with my size.  Get over it!  I have to do things my own way and very slowly.  If I go for the quick fix, I end up gaining weight and am even more unhappy than when I started.  Don't get me wrong.  I very much consider myself a "fat and fit" girl.  I guess if I didn't lose the 25-35 pounds that I would love to lose, I would be able to live my life just fine.  I rarely have hip pain anymore and I feel stronger than I have in quite a few years.  But I sure would like to take up a little less space in the world. 

A lot of times I post about my trials and tribulations in the weight and diet department because I want to "shame" myself into stopping whatever I'm doing.  That doesn't work.  But what I have realized is that there are a lot of people out there in my shoes.  And I want each and every single one of you to know that you aren't alone and you are beautiful and amazing just the way you are.  Life doesn't start five pounds from now.  So get out there and live!

For the record, all of these ladies are beautiful...and most likely ALL are photoshopped!

Breaking stereotypes

Friday, August 17, 2012

Dance 4 Ice - Save The Arctic!

Sure, you love pole dancing but have you ever wondered if you could combine your love of pole with a great charity?  Pole Spin Magazine has Pole For A Cause.  We at Twirly Girls started Twirl For A Cause.  There is also a Pole For A Purpose.  There are so many ways to get involved in your community to raise money for a great cause.  

Recently, I covered the upcoming showcase and competition in Sweden, PoleArt 2012.  You can check out those posts here:

Recently, I saw a post from PoleArt creator, Nelle Swan.  In addition to putting on this amazing show, they are adding a great charity to it.  Here is her post from Facebook:
Friends! Colleagues! Here it is - we can explain why we've been unreachable and living under a rock the past couple of months.
Myself, Serena Mon De Vienne and many other volunteers have been involved in developing a campaign that enables dancers to contribute to a more sustainable environment. A campaign that is also a part of POLE ART 2012!

There's a part of the world that is being horribly exploited by large corporation yet this environmental degradation is kept under wraps. Now YOU (dancer of otherwise) can make a change. 
Lets go together, create a buzz and build awareness of what's going on!
This isn't about clicking on a button - it'll take more effort and muscle power than that. But if you really want to MAKE a difference, here's a chance:
Watch this video:
The Arctic move is borrowed from pole dancing and can be virtually done by anyone. Our choreographer Serena Mon De Vienne, founder of Intellego Pole company, has selected a simple Arctic move for you to try out anywhere and anytime. In our video we show you just how easy it is, and give examples of jumping on a streetlamp or traffic sign and do the move. Here are some simple steps to get engaged.

1) Watch the tutorial video
2) Make your interpretation of the move.
3) Capture it on video, upload it on YouTube or Vimeo and share here. Your smart phone video camera quality will do. If you get more than 500 signatures for Saving the Arctic on your video page, you will be rewarded! Read full instructions
So, what are you waiting for?!  Check out the website for FULL instructions, then get out there and try the move!  

Monday, August 13, 2012

Poletential's Third Air Show!

Poletential has DONE IT AGAIN!  Their third Air Show was another huge success.  (Check out my post about the second Air Show HERE.) 

This time, the show was on a Friday night, and the ENTIRE REST OF THE WEEKEND was filled with poletastic workshops and events.

The show was headlined by David C. Owen, Nadia Sharif, Flying Laura, Amber Richard, Aerial Amy and the Paper Doll Militia.  Also, many of the amazing students and instructors from Poletential performed.  I think one of my favorite things about a Poletential show is the caliber of performer that they create.  All of the students do such a great job of getting into character.

Anyway, I could talk all day about how amazeballs the performers were.  Nadia Sharif spinning and climbing through an aerial cube.  David C. Owen bending in the craziest ways.  Flying Laura killing it, even though she's still nursing a broken finger.  Aerial Amy making it look easy with her sexy floor work and flawless spins.  Amber Richard busting out an awesome reprise of her Girls Next Door 80's performance.  And local performers, the Paper Doll Militia doing a jaw-dropping silks routine on CHAINS.  But you don't want to read my review.  You want to watch it yourself!  Check out the YouTube play list:

The rest of the weekend was really great too.  Due to some other issues, I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to participate in any other events.  On Saturday, Twirly Girls had their 2013 calendar shoot.  It was a long (but fun) day.  But, after the shoot, Rita and I headed back over the bridge to meet Annemarie Davies and Alex Davies (from United Pole Artists), as well as Nadia Sharif (a freaking pole ninja).  And things just got crazier from there.  We joined the Poletential crowd at a local pub where we mingled with the rest of the pros and students from the studio.  There are not many words to explain what happened next.  Mostly just: Best.  Night.  Ever.  hahaha!  Pictures are below.

As we dropped Annemarie, Alex and Nadia off at the hotel, Nadia encouraged Rita and I to come to her workshop the next morning.  At first, I declined, mostly because I had been running around all weekend and needed to do some things at home.  Then I decided, why really shouldn't pass up opportunities when they are smacking you in the face.  So, on Sunday, we attended Nadia and Mina's doubles workshop.  Then I stayed for Aerial Amy's fluidity and floorwork workshop.

The doubles workshop was so fun.  Nadia and Mina are such a great team.  They seem to know what the other is thinking at all times.  We did some partner stretches, then worked on a few pole moves.  The entire workshop lasted over two hours.  Rita and I were not advanced enough to do some of the moves, and since I am a sweaty beast, its really hard for me to partner up with people anyway.  But I felt like we learned a lot.  I did successfully complete an acro shoulder stand off of David C. Owen's thighs!  I so wish I had a photo of that.  Sorry about the whole vagina in your face, David!

Amy's floorwork workshop was amazing in a different way.  We spent an entire 90 minutes on the floor.  Crawling and writhing.  Tossing our hair.  Moving our bodies in very sexy ways.  I don't know how to really describe it.  Sexy is not really something I pull off very well and this definitely took me out of my comfort zone ... in a good way.  I tried very hard to not watch myself in the mirror, as I get VERY self-conscious.  But Amber Richard paid me a very sweet compliment and said I looked just fine.  Sexy is not a size.  Confidence is sexy.  I keep forgetting that.

As I sit here on a Monday morning, tired and sore, I am so glad that I didn't turn down any opportunities.  I had such a great time all weekend and I want to say that I really adore my new little friend, Nadia (she really is tiny, her head only comes up to my boobs!).  My boobies can be her pillows any day!